In order to understand how this confidence in Sri Ram came about and how his suspicion of Sugriv’s intentions remained in Angad’s mind, we must review some of the events in Angad’s life. He must have been sorely aggrieved by his father’s death. The circumstances as well as the manner in which his father died must have heightened his indignation. Ordinarily, he ought to be angry with Sri Ram for his unjustified intervention in the conflict of the two brothers. To make matters worse, Sri Ram struck Bali with the fatal arrow from behind whilst Bali was engaged in direct combat with Sugriv. In such circumstances, it would not have been unnatural for Angad to challenge Sri Ram’s moral and ethical position. But his acquaintance with his father’s mental state in his dying moments had put him into a great dilemma. He had witnessed how Sri Ram had offered to restore Bali’s life and how his father had refused this offer. He had also listened very carefully to the discussion between his father and Sri Ram before that. He knew both of his father’s accusation as well as Sri Ram’s resounding reply. At that time it was not easy for him to decide what was proper and what was improper. It was natural for him to support his father’s accusation. But Sri Ram’s answer too was so appropriate that he could not deny the truth of it. In such a situation it was difficult for him to determine whether Sri Ram was merciful or unjust. At the same time, the slayer of his father also appeared as the bestower of life, who, in a tender voice was offering to restore his father back to life. But the very next moment he was even more astonished when his father refused the boon with humility. Furthermore, his dying father took his hand and surrendered it to Sri Ram asking the Lord to accept the service of his child. As stated before, this was indeed a very extraordinary type of dedication where the one being dedicated does not do so on his own free will but by another and that too being his own father for whom he had great love and respect. Then too, he was being surrendered to someone who appeared to him to possess such contradictory attributes as justice and injustice, tenderness and harshness, as well as human and divine. He could neither deny this dedication which was his father’s last wish nor could he fully accept it, uncertain as he was about the one to whom he was being dedicated. In the end acceptance must have prevailed since nothing to the contrary has been indicated.
It cannot be said that Angad was truly happy after receiving the position of crown price. He was not strong enough to decline the position nor did he find any joy in accepting it. He was unsure whether this position was offered to him by Sri Ram out of generosity or political shrewdness. If he had become fully convinced of Sri Ram’s divinity then his inner conflict would have fully subsided. At that stage, he had no evidence born of his own experience but was only going along on his father’s word. Even though he had tremendous respect for his father, he was unsure about accepting his words as the gospel. That is why he accepted the position of crown prince with mixed feelings. In accepting the position of crown prince he must have at some time been tormented with the thought that in the eyes of the world it would seem that he had overlooked his father’s death for the sake of this position. In any event, he could not have any gentle feelings towards Sugriv. In his view Sugriv was the person who was the cause of his father’s death. Sugriv’s conduct too, after being crowned king, was such that it could not generate any reverence towards him in Angad’s mind. His life was not the life of an ideal king since it had degenerated into one of lust and sensuality. When Lakshman angrily entered the city to punish Sugriv, Angad thought only of his own safety and security and rushed out to meet Lakshman. But when Lakshman reassured him, he did nothing further to ensure the protection of Sugriv. Perhaps he would have been happier if Lakshman had proceeded to punish Sugriv. However, Sugriv took refuge in Hanumanji who ensured his protection and well being.
Angad was made the leader of the party that was sent to the south to find Mother Sita. In this group there were such valiant, experienced and wise personalities as Jambavan and Hanumanji. To be made leader of that group was to bestow on Angad a great honour. But even in this, Angad perceived a plot to eliminate him. In the beginning, because of the possibility of success in the mission, the idea did not clearly dawn on him, but later when failure stared them in the face, he explicitly gave expression to this thought.
The search for Mother Sita proved to be an arduous task. The enthusiasm of the group gradually diminished as their search failed to yield results. Eventually, they began to despair when oppressed by fatigue and thirst they lost their way in the dense forest. When Hanumanji saw that the leader Angad was at wits end, he took the initiative and scrambled alone up a high mountain and began to survey from that advantageous point the countryside around them. By his keen sense of observation, he noticed some birds flying in and out of a cavity in the ground. He guessed that there may be water there and after coming down the hill, he took all his companions to the spot and showed them the cave. But Angad, being the leader, did not have the courage to lead them inside. Perhaps, there was in his mind a psychological fear of caves because he felt that his father’s downfall was due to him entering a cave in order to vanquish the demon Mayavi. It resulted in the misunderstanding between his father and Sugriv and that eventually led to his father being killed by Sri Ram. Hanumanji perceived Angad’s apprehension and again quietly took the initiative and he himself led the group into the cave without further loss of time.
As they entered the cave, an amazing sight greeted their eyes. They saw a lovely garden with a lake containing many full blown lotuses. There was a beautiful temple there in which sat a woman who was austerity incarnate. She gave them permission to refresh themselves with the limpid water of the lake and partake of the luscious fruit from the garden. When she learned of their despair at not succeeding in their mission of locating Mother Sita, she reassured them of future success and asked them to momentarily close their eyes. When they opened their eyes again, they were amazed to find themselves standing on the sea shore in the southern tip of the land. This miracle performed by the lady, Swayamprabha by name, was considered by them to be a revelation of God’s grace and it was the first indication to Angad of Divine intervention and help in their endeavor to carry out the Lord’s work. It instilled some self-confidence in him and somewhat strengthened his faith in Sri Ram. His enthusiasm was however, short-lived when he realized that the time-limit of one month imposed by Sugriv had expired and the vast ocean stretching out in front of them rendered impossible any further search for Mother Sita. Then for the first time in the Ramcharitmanas we hear the direct speech of Angad. Even though his words held out no hope of them sustaining their lives, they contained a message of preference to death for a worthy cause than attempt to live longer by abandoning that cause and thereby die dishonorably when death inevitably comes. We therefore see in these words of Angad a quantum leap in his spiritual sadhana and a growing confidence in working out the Divine will.
To be continued…
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